Thursday night

Today was a challenge - but i got through. One light hearted spot was a quick trip to the COOP - checking the ticket edge strips in the empty vegetable aisle ( they don't really 'do' fresh and green here ) I caught sight of something very disturbing. Apparently they sell a product called "Trimmed Mange" - I really hope there is a 'Tout" somewhere.

It's nearly midnight - I'm watching the Michael Caine version of Sleuth - it's very relaxing - it's something I copied off the TV about 6 years ago, the adverts are all for current accounts that pay 6% interest and mortgages where you can draw down the equity in cash - no questions asked. It's almost absurd to think of that now - I remember when I was waiting to move into this house - I had the deposit in my current account and made about £300pcm in interest.

Still not sure why my mobile sucks up so much broadband - I really did prefer PAYG.

Today started very badly - an early morning walk descended into chaos when one of my well meaning and very friendly near neighbours insisted that I let my dogs off the lead to play with his. That part was fine - a good time was had by all - until he went home and I had to reap the whirlwind of a fucked up greyhound with mental problems and neurological issues caused by the abuse he suffered before I adopted him. It's like flicking a switch - get him excited and he becomes something else. Stupid, hysterical, belligerent and attitude. After 30mins trying to get him back on the lead I lost my temper and shouted, with the inevitable result that I scarred him - and he ran away. 2 hours. 2 fucking hours it took to get him back. At one point I sat on a tree stump with my head in my hands and wondeed where it all went wrong and why my life is such a fucking disaster.

I gave up trying to sell an antique farmhouse table - about 5 people have begged for it ( at an absurdly low price ) and messed me about - so I just put a photo on facebook and begged anyone to take it away - one of my workmates is collecting it tomorrow. I might get a pint out of it.

To try and focus - I decided to 'fix' at least one thing today - so I took down all the shelves in the kitchen - which are a couple of inches away from their perfect position - and put them all back in the right place. This made me feel better.

I'm designing a wedding invitation for some friends - they like the ideas, but now are fighting over the exact wording. I never charge for stuff like this - they are the worst possible things you can do - we will all end up hating each other.