Thursday, 23 May 2013
Thursday
Last working day of the week, having a long weekend - need a break. Have turned down a very big piece of work and feel much better for it - it wasn't something I felt comfortable with doing and there were a couple of political issues around the 'brand' that I wasn't happy with.
Making a supreme effort not to read or listen to the news for a few days, too upsetting all round.
Found a fiver in a pile of receipts - that's a sign if a good day to come. Quite a bit of work to do today - just bracing myself....
Making a supreme effort not to read or listen to the news for a few days, too upsetting all round.
Found a fiver in a pile of receipts - that's a sign if a good day to come. Quite a bit of work to do today - just bracing myself....
Tuesday, 21 May 2013
Tuesday
Spent most of last night unable to sleep, fretting about a commission I may - or may not accept. I've never regretted turning work down - I've only regretted things I have done and that have gone really badly wrong, and spent years regretting it. I'm putting together a proposal today - it's an industry I know far more about than the client realises - so I'm very cautious - and there seem to be too may people involved in the chain - I just want to isolate my part and get on with it - and be paid properly - that might not seem like too much to ask... but in my industry... forget it.
Worrying about it ruined my day yesterday - and I've come out in a nervous rash, which is a bit silly for a bloke of my age - but...well, that just the way it is.
I'm not bothering with the news at the moment - I'm still trying to figure out what the terms ;aggressive homosexual' and 'actively homosexual' actually mean - they seem to be degrees of guilt and put me in mind of Germany in the 1930's. "Have you ever been active, aggressive, a boy scout, or had a Jewish grandparent". Baroness Trumpington ( you really couldn't make that up.... no wonder the foreigners laugh at us ) was on the radio at the weekend, and despite being mostly entertaining, if a little old and cranky - managed to fuck up her life's work by using the final few broadcast seconds top rant on with her 'children should never be allowed to have gay parent figures' creed - the studio fell silent - mostly through shock - as we tumbled into a dreary news story. Stupid woman.
Yesterday - I'd missed breakfast so at 8am found myself at MacDonalds waiting for a coffee and muffin. My guilt and shame was relieved by the girl in front of me - despite being the size of a small family car, ordering two Chocolate Sundae type deserts for her breakfast.
Worrying about it ruined my day yesterday - and I've come out in a nervous rash, which is a bit silly for a bloke of my age - but...well, that just the way it is.
I'm not bothering with the news at the moment - I'm still trying to figure out what the terms ;aggressive homosexual' and 'actively homosexual' actually mean - they seem to be degrees of guilt and put me in mind of Germany in the 1930's. "Have you ever been active, aggressive, a boy scout, or had a Jewish grandparent". Baroness Trumpington ( you really couldn't make that up.... no wonder the foreigners laugh at us ) was on the radio at the weekend, and despite being mostly entertaining, if a little old and cranky - managed to fuck up her life's work by using the final few broadcast seconds top rant on with her 'children should never be allowed to have gay parent figures' creed - the studio fell silent - mostly through shock - as we tumbled into a dreary news story. Stupid woman.
Yesterday - I'd missed breakfast so at 8am found myself at MacDonalds waiting for a coffee and muffin. My guilt and shame was relieved by the girl in front of me - despite being the size of a small family car, ordering two Chocolate Sundae type deserts for her breakfast.
Monday, 20 May 2013
Monday Morning
In the studio - very rainy day, very overcast. Spending the day catching up. Feeling pretty washed out and tired today - probably going to finish at about 4pm and wander home for another early night.
Did very little over the weekend - too knackered. Met a friend and her little boy at the Pelican Cafe and had hot dogs on Sunday - enjoyed that. I saw my neighbour (at the back), we share a garden wall, she's an X student) - she finally had her baby - the midwife was late and it came so fast she had it at home, delivered by her husband.
last night I finally got round to watching Shortbus. It's been out for a few years now, plenty of drama when it was first released because of the graphic presentation of 'real' rather than simulated sex. I actually found it funny, warm, human and very intelligent. In fact - it was a great film and I loved it - not what I was expecting at all. Te first 10 mins has enough sex to clear the audience of anyone who will have issues - and then it really calms down. The thing is - there is so much unrealistic, glossy, Hollywood sex on TV and cinema - that the 'real' thing, with 'real' people - in the context of 'real' stories - made it OK - you don't even notice it any more, and frankly - there isn't actually that much. all the characters are like able, all the issues and problems they face turn out to be realistic and human - and there are some spectacular jokes. It was a proper 'grown up' film for 'grown ups'.
Lots to do this week. My house looks like something off a documentary about the people who clean up after dead bodies are found. Should really get a handle on it.
Did very little over the weekend - too knackered. Met a friend and her little boy at the Pelican Cafe and had hot dogs on Sunday - enjoyed that. I saw my neighbour (at the back), we share a garden wall, she's an X student) - she finally had her baby - the midwife was late and it came so fast she had it at home, delivered by her husband.
last night I finally got round to watching Shortbus. It's been out for a few years now, plenty of drama when it was first released because of the graphic presentation of 'real' rather than simulated sex. I actually found it funny, warm, human and very intelligent. In fact - it was a great film and I loved it - not what I was expecting at all. Te first 10 mins has enough sex to clear the audience of anyone who will have issues - and then it really calms down. The thing is - there is so much unrealistic, glossy, Hollywood sex on TV and cinema - that the 'real' thing, with 'real' people - in the context of 'real' stories - made it OK - you don't even notice it any more, and frankly - there isn't actually that much. all the characters are like able, all the issues and problems they face turn out to be realistic and human - and there are some spectacular jokes. It was a proper 'grown up' film for 'grown ups'.
Lots to do this week. My house looks like something off a documentary about the people who clean up after dead bodies are found. Should really get a handle on it.
Sunday, 19 May 2013
Sunday
Exhausted after last week. Work in Leicester went really well and the journey there and back was fine, although the ticket purchasing experience was complex and absurd - I don't really want to get into details - too boring, but the whole system is a complex, messy muddle that treats the passenger with contempt, and they seem to employ people with phsycopathic tendencies.
Saturday was mostly spent asleep - although I did go out and buy some very cheap cordalines and a load of garden mint, which I have yet to take out of the box.
Did I mention I'd lost weight? - It's great - a month without eating bread and I feel like a different person.
I've been given a new branding commission that I have to start looking at next week that will potentially be the biggest thing I've ever done - and it needs to be done really quickly.
In other news - I have a feeling I mentioned on here a couple of years ago that I was in a taxi one night and someone ran out in front of us - went under the car - then got up and ran away , clearly out of his mind on drugs or something. The cab driver was really upset, he reported it and his control told him to carry on working - but I insisted that he went home to his family. Anyway, on Friday - I had the same cab driver - he remembered me straight away and thanked me, saying that I'd been the only person who has ever been kind to him in his job. It pays to be nice.
Today shall mostly be spent doing nothing.
Saturday was mostly spent asleep - although I did go out and buy some very cheap cordalines and a load of garden mint, which I have yet to take out of the box.
Did I mention I'd lost weight? - It's great - a month without eating bread and I feel like a different person.
I've been given a new branding commission that I have to start looking at next week that will potentially be the biggest thing I've ever done - and it needs to be done really quickly.
In other news - I have a feeling I mentioned on here a couple of years ago that I was in a taxi one night and someone ran out in front of us - went under the car - then got up and ran away , clearly out of his mind on drugs or something. The cab driver was really upset, he reported it and his control told him to carry on working - but I insisted that he went home to his family. Anyway, on Friday - I had the same cab driver - he remembered me straight away and thanked me, saying that I'd been the only person who has ever been kind to him in his job. It pays to be nice.
Today shall mostly be spent doing nothing.