Saturday

Very difficult day yesterday and was working until 1am, very tired today - and bloody hating this heat - it's horrible. Loads to do - just back from a dog walk and still considering getting a bad cold later today. I'm sure that most people think the sun is wonderful but I detest it - yesterday morning I felt as if I was going to pass out and was wobbly all day, the students think it's great and I've been letting them off early to go paddling in the sea.

I sent loads f work off last night and I'm just waiting for the email asking me to change most of it, they always do. I also probably scuppered a profitable piece of work with another new client with an offhand email on Friday morning passing the chance to have a meeting - in truth, it wasn't a piece of work I wanted to do - I think my subconcious took over and I did some automatic writing at the keyboard. This is a client who described me as 'hostile' after our first meeting. If thy come back after this they are either desperate of really keen.

Not having had any time off over the summer is really taking it's toll. A week of teaching and dealing with a year of new students has sucked the life out of me - and having to work at nights is a killer. I didn't go out last night ( obv. ) and I'm invited to a house party later - but I won't go - I hate house parties, I can't do the social politics. I arrive too early, fail to chatter away and can't make friends, always offend someone and spend lots of time lurking about, not knowing what to say.

I'm listening to Richard Coles on the radio - an added frisson today is that I know that as soon as he finishes recording his show - he's having his photograph taken by one of my mates.

This Mac crashed in the week. That never happens - I ought to be sensible and clear off the hard drive today - just in case!